08.02.14
Another year….time to start again, again.
The time from March 2 to August 2 is a long 5 months… it was… five years ago … a day to day struggle for me. It got easier but still as long. Last year it got shorter…
I did not count the days each and everyone to re-think my mistakes, and wasted moments in the last months of Lucas’s life. This year the over whelming questions did not really start until last night…. and today…. minute to minute. I have two more to hit tonight…. 8:30 pm and 11:30 pm. The sadness and quilt is overwhelming but I will get through the night…and begin a new year tomorrow. I hope Lucas will help me be a good person this next year…….
