05.19.06
Listening to CD
I received the CD from Lane right after Lucas’s Birthday. I had to wait to listen to it so I could build up my courage.
I drove to Chattanooga about three weeks ago and listened to the whole thing. Surprisingly to me,I did not cry the whole trip. The happy songs made me happy…. being his mother I did not get to “go out” with Lucas an whoop it up. I wish I had now because I know we would have had fun. The funny thing about the songs from his childhood is I remember them being some of my favorites to belt out in the car with the kids or from movies that Lucas, Tarlie and I watched during the summers. “Grease” was one of those movies… i don’t remember what year it was but it came out and I’m sure we recorded it on VHS tape and played it every morning for a whole summer. Tarlie and I would dance and sing around to all the songs… Lucas would too some but I really think he just watch us being silly….but obviously it stayed with him if he loved the John and Oliva version of the “You’re the One that I Want” whoo… whoo whoo.. which is the only way I can say the words…..
I knew “Patches” was one of his favorites as I found the words written out in his papers… and Billy Ki lough his 4 year old teacher wrote me that she can remember him lip sinking patches as a four year old….. amazing to me.
“I’m on Fire” was a song I fell in love with because of the train whistle…I requested that Jerry go get it for me and I played it over and over until I could sing the fast part along with Bruce.
“You’ve Lost that Lovin Feeling” is from my teenage years but I’m sure Lucas learned it from Top Gun…. I loved that movie and it was at the condo to watch over and over….and sing along too.
“When a Man Loves a Woman” was one of the first songs that Jerry and I shared together which I would always turn up to 10 decibels….and sing to.. with “Amazing Grace” and “I saw the Light”.
“Over the Rainbow” was, of course, from the “Wizard of OZ” by Judy Garland whom Pops and YaYa named me after so I always sang it when I heard it but not the version on this CD but i now love this version along with the original…
and by the way I CANNOT sing or carry a tune solo but if someone is there to sing with me I can (sometimes) follow the tune…. so I like to think that Lucas learned it did not matter if you went off key while singing it was the enthusiasm and meaning that was important…. similar to cheering at the top of your lungs… to let all those out there hear that you love them….
so Lucas I hope you could hear me singing along with some our shared songs.. at the top of my lungs and out of tune and wishing you were still here for me to sing with. I miss you and think of you every day.. love mom.